so bored!

haix so sian holidays still mus come back school. why i go choose tis cds sia make mi so fan. m i not strong enough to be sum1 or i'm jus a plain loser in life? i can see so many opportunity out there n i jus cant get any of it to make it mine. Sum1 close to mi once said he dun believe in fate cos he believe tt if sum1 wanna sth no matter if he is poor or wat as long as he really wan it he will get it in the end but is tis really true? to mi i think is true but i think is really up to the person himself/herself to get it n no matter how ppl push is still up to him to see wat is important at the moment n not seeing the opportunity there n dun get it. now i think i really nid sum1 to be there for mi n listen to mi. i hate the feeling of talking to a non-living thing abt how i feel or seeking for advice haix. ppl can find mi funny or easy to talk to but deep inside mi i'm no1 but jus a loser. i may haf alot of contact in my fone but does every1 inside my fone but do they really wan to be my friend anot all tis a question. maybe is all my fault to tt cos all tis happen but how to change when the habit is with mi for 22yr of my life. is jus like u asking a smoker to quit smoking. Sian ah life is really meaningless. Bro i think frm now on u go on with ur thing n dun worry abt mi k i will do it at my own pace cos i dun1 to drag u down wif mi. i noe i'm now is burden to u i'm sorry abt tt but i think i'm really not hard enough. dun worry i'm not giving up but jus doing it slowly cos i dun haf the fate i nid in mi now. sorry for wasting so much of ur time.